July 9, 2012
Hi babe, I know you’re not going to read this till you get internet or in this case a laptop. I bet you didn’t know I was able to get in this! I just wanted to write you a little sum sum. I know I mail you a lot…. prolly all the time.. but this is something you wouldn’t anticipate and I just wanted to surprise you a little.. I know we’re not the type to be sentimental or be affectionate in person. Where we like to keep our shit, OUR shit. &being called “cute” in front of people we make it look like “ew really, gross” type a thing. I like that. I like that we can feed off eachother. That we know when eachother is being serious and when we’re not. I enjoy your company.. and i’ve been deprived of it for at least 36 days now. It was hard for the first couple days and the first 2 weeks without you.. and then I got those phone calls every Sunday, and the letters started to come things got so much better to cope. &then being able to spend time with your family still because they want me to still be around makes it even easier to cope. But it sucks getting asked the same questions over and over again.. “how’s jon, are you okay, are you crying, are you sad?” Well of course I’m crying and of course i’m sad! I wouldn’t admit any of this to you on the phone or in the letters because I feel like it’ll make you sad.. and it’ll stress you out. I know you worry about me all the time and reading it and hearing it from you just makes things even worse for me because it makes you sad, and affects how you’re doing and sleeping. It sucks I can’t do anything for you but be 100% supportive and happy for everything you’re doing. I’m so proud of you even if it’s only Bootcamp and only the start of your future. I’m proud you’re doing something with your life other than being in a gang, dealing with drugs, or living off your parents. You’re 21 and you’ve accomplished so much independently that I’m so proud to call you mine<3. I know if anything happens in the future, you’ll be okay and we’ll be okay together. I trust you with what you do, and what you do for us. Thanks babe.. still remember what you said to me.. “i’m doing this for us, i’m doing this for you.” But I really think you were born to be in the military anyway. Well anyways.. i’d write more and more and more and more but it’s getting late.. and i’m tired. I love you babe, sleep tight<3. xoxo I still love you.